Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Stella

" Hello............yeah, its me....................thank God you are awake."

" Ya...........everything's fine............its just that...........forget it!! Howz life at your end?"

" O, really!! That sounds great."

" hmmm............can i ask you something?"

" No.......no, nothing to worry about. Its just that i desperately wanted to talk to someone..................."

" I know this sounds crazy.........but..........there's something about the way that i am feeling right now, and i can't help it!!"

" No, i am not sick..........i am perfectly fine, i think??...........or may be i am not just myself anymore.........."

" You know that i can never be fliudly intelligent."

" Helloo.........are you still there?"

" I know it has been a long time, since we had a conversation like this.................and all i want to say..........is that...........my emotions towards you haven't changend.........."

" No..........i am not asking you to return to me................i would be selfish if i do that............i know i dont deserve you..............but..........."

" I know our relationship was not simple........but there was nothing like it, either........"

" Its really difficult to dam this surging tide of emotions............and,"

" And the more i see you with her............the more i want to be with you.............the more i see you kissing, and talking to her...........the more i fall in love with you.........."

" Why is love the most difficult of all emotions to express?"

" Just look at me............i've become a total mess!!"

" I know, i have sinned...........a sin that is not venial........but, if its a sin to fall in love with a person already married...........then i am glad........that i have sinned.........."

" I am not asking you to act on my feelings........i am......i am.......just asking you to acknowledge them.............is it too much of an asking??"


" I know i can never say these words to you............i know there's nobody on the other end............i dont have the courage to dial your number.......and...........cowards like me do not desreve to be loved......."

" I can now sleep peacefully.........and in sleep..........i would weave a world of dreams.........atleast the dreams are mine..........even if they are not real........."


Now Playing:: Is mod se jati hai........Aandhi

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Gosh!how many times i have done this!!!talk to him without dialling his number.it really helps to make peace with urself right!that dam of emotions need to be bursted once in a while.
lovely post deepika

Sagar said...

Lovely post Deepu, never expected such an emotional one from you. Nice surprise. And you still hold the ground that you are not in love?? Hard to believe.

Deepika said...

Thanx both of you.

Dear anon can i know your name plz? Ya i guess that's a nice way of making peace with oneself.......well said, i never viewed it in that light.

And Sagar you idiot i dont understand why do you think that i am in love? only becoz once in a while i come up with these mushy kind of posts doesnt imply that i am in love.

Jasmine said...

Now Miss.Deepika,its high time u confess that u too r infected with the damn bug called.LOVE !! Atleast dont hide this 4rm me..If not,then how come u know the tragic parts of love so well ????

Anonymous said...

deepika i just stumbled upon your blog once and was really caught in that big web of emotions that you potray,i have 2 reasons to like you 1 you write so well and remind me of my growing up years and 2 bcos you r name is deepika which happens to be my best friend's name too and guess what i called her??deeepi.and thats what i will call you too regarding whats my name lets keep it as anon .its sounds nice:)

Deepika said...

Ok as you wish anon.........there's no compulsion to reveal your name........its just that a name completes one's personlaity.......thats what i feel.......most Deepikas are good.....isnt it? Just kidding!!


And Jassu darling i've got only one thing to tell you that i am not in love, and the day i find one.......u wud be the first to know.